January 18th

I've been feeling worse than ever lately. I feel tired all the time, no matter how much sleep I get, I feel fat, my skin is breaking out and I am frustrated with school. I just want to say screw it and just get a full time job, I'm just really on the verge of tears all the time. My back has been KILLING me, my family doctor says I have the back of a 90 year old and she got me in for x-rays today. I had a round of 8 x-rays on all parts of my spine and shoulders, I hope they can give me something I can do to help fix it because every day I go through so much pain I literally almost throw up. It hurts so badly I just want to stay in bed with a heating pad and cry, every day, I can't concentrate on my school work and my grades are dropping because of it. I have so many distractions because of it. I just hope I can get the answers I need from the x-ray results and maybe get to a chiropractor or do physio, they mentioned getting surgery to reduce my chest size, but I really want to keep them, I don;t care if I need a back brace, I need this fixed :(