And then there was one

Lately I have been feeling really alone, more alone than I have felt in a long time. It's just this feeling like I have no one to relate to, no one who knows what it's like to be battling depression, anxiety and graves disease and to try and lose weight at the same time. I feel like a complete failure and it sucks.

I have my application filled out for my funding, after almost 5 months of research, job hunting, everything I finally get to send in my application!! If all goes as planned I could be in school as soon as February and that terrifies the crap out of me. I have been out of school since 2007 and it scares me to think I will be thrust back into a school full of people younger than me, mainly I am afraid it will be a high school environment, the same environment I fought so hard to be done with.

The ratties are doing well, Dixie and Darla did manage to EAT a pillow case, needless to say my fiance wasn't too impressed with that. I switched them from Critter Care to Carefresh Ultra in hopes that it would be easier on Dixie, her sneezing has subsided to almost nothing since I switched them. Though the little devils came out of their hammock when I was cleaning the cage and not being able to get to their litter they peed on the fleece I put on the cage shelf. I had to go out today and pick up some more blankets from the dollar store.

The dryer died on me a week or so ago, I had to go to my parents house last night and dry all my clothes, after four hours I finally finished.

Stewie is doing well as well, I got to see her last night when I was visiting, she's getting so old it breaks my heart, she is roughly 6 years old so I wonder if I will get a call from Mom saying Stewie passed :(

Argh, Christmas is coming so fast it's not even funny, I have the majority of my shopping done but I still have to buy for my fiance. I have no idea what I can get him! He's so hard to buy for and I have a VERY limited budget with my income being so low :( I have managed ok since I first started my EI in August, but it's terrifying to learn that if I go back to school my income will be even lower. I'm hoping we'll get out home heating rebate soon and that I'll get a refund I have been waiting in.

Oh, I have a new found obsession with the Snyder's pretzel thingies, NOM NOM!! I love the Hot Buffalo Wings Pieces, they have me drooling just thinking about 'em. I want to try all the flavors! They have a Honey Mustard & Onion flavor I'd love to try as well as a Southern Style Barbecue Pretzel Pieces...oh food!!

Anyway, off to take a nap, no sleep at all last night! TTYL world!