Have you ever felt that for every one good thing that happens seven bad things knock you right back on your ass?
The past few days I have gotten devastating news, don't want to divulge it, but it's compromising mine and my fiancees future. My heart is broken and I couldn't be more upset if I tried.
I want nothing more in life than to see my guy happy, and he can't be, it's like no matter what, he is always set up for failure. Not by his own doing by any means, but because of decisions that he made in haste that came back to bite him in the backside.
It seems like we can't get ahead, that we are both set up for failure. My heart is breaking and there is nothing I can do to fix it.
I've been missing Harley a lot lately, my poor pony. I wonder what ever happened to him, where he is now. Oh what I would give to have him back.
I was looking forward to the future with my fiancee, now I don't see us managing to drag ourselves out of this hole. It's depressing that our lives will never turn out the way we planned. It's just enough to drive you around the bend.
I always saw us moving away, having a house in the country and starting a family, now it seems like that dream is just that, a dream. I'm afraid I will be stuck here in Newfoundland forever.
