Frustration :(

Why is it some people thrive on complaining about you to you?? I find lately all I hear is "you're fat" "lose weight" "You talk too much" "You complain too much" "You're home all day, why don't you do anything?" I mean it's at the point now where I think I'll keep my weight on FOR SPITE. I get so angry and frustrated with the constant criticism that I honestly want to do exactly what's annoying the person and keep it up. I mean FFS! >:(

There's so much roadwork going on lately I think my car is paying the price, they cut up big slabs of pavement and just leave it like that, our streets have been cut since Monday and they still aren't patched. I wonder sometimes if it really is that much cheaper to just do a patch because as soon as winter comes and the ground freezes and thaws a few times the plow trucks catch the seam of the pavement and rip it all up again. They re-paved the road a few months ago, they should have just kept going!!

I've been painting my nails more often lately :D I like constantly changing the colors to just change things up. I find since I have been off work I wear big baggy t-shirts and work out pants more often. I think it's making it easier to gain weight because you have to gain a lot to outgrow the elastic waistband.

The past few days I have been so sick, my neck has been swollen, and I have been so sleepy, I am starting to think maybe I should just get the radiation done, I mean I'll still be on meds, but I dunno. My thyroid issues are just starting to get me down, they make in increasingly difficult to lose any weight without outright starving myself. I'm half tempted to do a juice cleanse, yes I know they are bad for you, but I just, I dunno, I'm getting sick of being this fat and miserable. Even running makes me sick, my ribs hurt and I can't breathe. I've been at it a week now and nothing has changed.