Twice in a row? That's a record

So yeah, it's me again. I am wrapped in a snuggie wondering where my 11 days off went. I have to head back to work on Monday, and I don't want to! I wish I could stay home and relax, and make myself feel better. These past few days have been great, but they flew by.

I lost some weight this past year, I lost 4o pounds to be exact. I still have 27 to go before I'll be happy. I don't feel happy in general now, I feel miserable.

I haven't seen Dr.Slade in months, I miss being able to open up to her. She seems to be the only one who knows what I am going through. I haven't been on my medication in months and I think that's half the reason I feel as screwed up as I am.I want to make an appointment to go see her again but my work is making it difficult. I can't have time off without giving two weeks notice and the worst part is, the only time they can fit me in is on short notice and my employers don't allow it.

In other news my cell is on the fritz, the damn thing wears out after 3 hours on stand by, STAND BY!! WTF?? Argh!

There isn't much news, my brother is stranded in Bedford, NS, he and his gf were booked on a flight today but the 40 cms of snow had other plans. He won't be home until tomorrow, and that makes me sad because I was hoping to go for a coffee with him before I go back to work. I miss my brother, we used to be so close, he used to tell me everything, and I did the same. Now I never see him, and I miss him. I wish we could go back to the way things used to be.

Things with my fella are getting...well..weird. I can't even try to explain it..:(